Transition From Skinny Girl to Med Size....
Where do I Start.
So for the past couple maybe even three years I've had this issue with my weight. Many girls typically do. Well even when I was a size 4 transition to a size 6 it became an issue. See as most I've always known its not in my genetic swimming pool to remain a stick all my life. Also, when you have the constant reminder from elders that the weight gain will soon to come, that doesn't exactly ease your nerves as a young child.
So I'm in a mood because I recently just got off the phone with a girlfriend of my, and she was speaking about a lady she works with and how shes an epic fail because she made the New Years Resolution to diet and lose weight, and the lady has had no success of weight loss.
Well being the person I am, and the transition struggle I'm having, hearing that comment didn't exactly excite me, and in a way I felt a bit unease. Because like many others I've made that same goal. However, instead of the diet goal, I've made the goal of just choosing a healthy eating lifestyle, and including regularly exercise.
So again being me, I wondered what is her idea of "big girl" being that shes a size 0. Her idea is maybe a size 8 as big girl. Yup, you guess it big girl me, is what I picked up from the conversation. So after that I tuned out the rest, and decided how do I forget this comment which was hard to do.
I'm in the processing of accepting that I may not ever get back to a size 2 or 4 of what. However, I won't accept the idea of someone else sizing me up. Now, I'm not saying I'm accepting the life of cakes, pies, and cookies.
I am saying that if she feels this way I can only imagine. Anywhoo..I care less to put much more of any thought. I'm just venting, and in the end what others think of me doesn't matter. Only what I think of myself, and what I know of myself. =)
Signing Off
Birdie
So for the past couple maybe even three years I've had this issue with my weight. Many girls typically do. Well even when I was a size 4 transition to a size 6 it became an issue. See as most I've always known its not in my genetic swimming pool to remain a stick all my life. Also, when you have the constant reminder from elders that the weight gain will soon to come, that doesn't exactly ease your nerves as a young child.
So I'm in a mood because I recently just got off the phone with a girlfriend of my, and she was speaking about a lady she works with and how shes an epic fail because she made the New Years Resolution to diet and lose weight, and the lady has had no success of weight loss.
Well being the person I am, and the transition struggle I'm having, hearing that comment didn't exactly excite me, and in a way I felt a bit unease. Because like many others I've made that same goal. However, instead of the diet goal, I've made the goal of just choosing a healthy eating lifestyle, and including regularly exercise.
So again being me, I wondered what is her idea of "big girl" being that shes a size 0. Her idea is maybe a size 8 as big girl. Yup, you guess it big girl me, is what I picked up from the conversation. So after that I tuned out the rest, and decided how do I forget this comment which was hard to do.
I'm in the processing of accepting that I may not ever get back to a size 2 or 4 of what. However, I won't accept the idea of someone else sizing me up. Now, I'm not saying I'm accepting the life of cakes, pies, and cookies.
I am saying that if she feels this way I can only imagine. Anywhoo..I care less to put much more of any thought. I'm just venting, and in the end what others think of me doesn't matter. Only what I think of myself, and what I know of myself. =)
Signing Off
Birdie
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